Life Is Like A Mist
How far do you plan out your life? How far ahead do you go? Do you plan out decades, years, months, and days ahead of where you are at this present moment? I understand having long-term and short-term goals. However, is your plan so meticulous that you will not leave your current plan – out of fear that your life will not go just as YOU have planned it?
Just recently, my aunt asked me what I plan on doing with my life in 17 years. You see, I am planning on moving out of the country. Why? I need to heal and God is calling me. While sitting at the kitchen table, my cousin asked me how I was doing. I proceeded to share with him details that I usually do not give to others. Having suffered a mild traumatic brain injury and having severe post-traumatic stress disorder in addition to daily pain, it is exhausting to explain: “How I am doing.” However, this day, I did share. I shared that I am likely moving to a country that is warm all year round. At this time, my aunt said to me: “What are you going to do there?” I responded, “I am going to heal.” She continued to ask me what I was going to do for work. I responded, “I am on long-term disability and my job right now is just to heal.” I gave more information than what truly belonged to her; and, I said that I took out full disability insurance benefits when I started working as a physician. Her next question was, “Well, what are you going to do for work in 17 years?” At this moment, I explained to her that I no longer plan out my life as I once did. I told her that each moment is not guaranteed to us; however, I could see through her frustration that she did not quite understand.
Let me share a Bible verse with you. Whether you are a believer or not, you will be able to take from what I am about to share with you.
Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
– James 4:13-15 (NIV)
Where is God calling you? Why are you so afraid to follow the journey that He has set out for you? Is it security? Well, if so, then place your trust in Him and He will show you that He is at your side. Is it fear? Then let go and let God.
Personally, at this moment, God is calling me to the Grand Cayman Island. What will I do? I will do exactly what I need to do. I will heal. I will take in the ocean and the sun and allow my body – my brain – to heal. The serenity of the island brings great peace and healing and that is where I need to be. All of my healthcare providers, including my spine surgeon, neuropsychologist, Christian marriage counselor, therapeutic massage therapist, and physical therapist, in addition to my insurance company are on board with this idea too. My insurance adjuster actually stated that most young people who experience a traumatic accident like my own and live in places like Michigan, decide to move to warmer weather. The Michigan weather is detrimental to my mind, body, and spirit. Prior to my accident, I never would have imagined leaving this state. Up until now, I have always been the person taking care of everyone else’s needs. However, today is a new day and I need to take care of my own needs.
Healing includes sharing my story. I will be sharing my story and faith in God with the women of the Cayman Islands, as I collaborate with a Caymanian female pastor. Future endeavors will allow the two of us to work together in bringing hope and faith to those who need help on the island.
Then what? Well, if life here on Earth is still ongoing, then I will continue to follow the guidance of God. Who are we to decide what God has in store for us? Let’s just live each moment for what it is worth.
I found this response by Senior Pastor, Dave Whitehead from GraceNYC.org and I feel that it is a great way to close this.
“James reminds us that we are not in charge of our future. This is not a doctrine to avoid planning as much as it is the antidote to the anxiety that we feel when we try to control things that we ultimately can’t control. We are not the masters of the universe, and when we think that we are dysfunction usually follows. So trust in the God who sees your every need, and humble yourself about what you can or can’t do. You’ll find a peace that will let you think clearer about today because you have let go of the illusion that you have tomorrow under your control.”